To be Silenced and Walk Away? ---It's always a business sign.

    What started a year ago almost to the date was to become one of the worst of my life, well not the worst but, to remember things.  It's the horrible things we don't want to remember.  The things we want to forget. But it's the truth. And in your stupidity because you grew up in I don't even know "a cult", but it can't all be a cult, because you know there are good people and good ministers, but some key leadership that are, well there is no other word for it---criminals.  Or one of them like Cogwa has criminals using the church as a shell company, to launder money.  Jim Franks is good at that. Well he knows if he dares to bother me, then I will expose everything.  And well what he and the others that know about it I would not touch with a ten foot pole, but we and many others both know alot of people would go to prison.  Up until a few months ago, I thought that I was in the "good one".  The good church The one that stood up on principle and for good things.  But out of the two they are far worse. And everyone is afraid even the ones that know. Bits and pieces. But hey you go through this much, then what have you got to lose? Your life? Well so be it. Even as little as 3 months ago in my mind why would anyone go to so much trouble to be want to be the President of a puny little church. Well let's just say there was already in place "many other activities' forming Cogwa, was in part a power trip, but the effort to chop up a church again, and the lengths he and a couple of other went to is the most Satanic thing I have ever seen".  You see I went to a very good business school.  You look at meeting minutes, if they are available.  Always.  I always every month sent tithes based on who I felt was honest or doing something.  You notice things.  There was this forum once.  A yahoo groups one.  I never asked to be the owner.  UCG---this very wicked council.  Who are mostly in Cogwa now, had attempted to shut it down twice.  I struggled. I was like what...24?  25?  I got threatening emails. For my safety.  I struggled, 

    I did not have the time or want it. But it was a life line to like 300 people. And you had to moderate it.  Because there are always trolls.  But issues kept coming up on the West Coast.  Of a minister molesting teenagers.  I asked Rex to look into it.  He was a field pastor, I don't know if he ever did or how much he knew.  But I did.  I looked at the meeting minutes and noticed two people walked out.  One minister I knew fairly well, he said if you want the truth, ask the mother.  So she did what any mother would do, stand up for her daughter and they were told not to talk about it, or it would not be looked into.  I spent several hours talking to her, vetting what she said, because well---it has to be the truth. For the sake of her daughter I will not say her name, but she wasted my time.  I kept it open for a family on other people I did not know.  I got threats of lawsuits.  The Young Adults forum got blasted from Clyde Kilough, because they were upset about the way Jim Obrien was treated.   I even sent out an open letter in his defense.  And a man, I respect because he was a teacher, but he cared more about others than himself.  He even posted the good things in United, like Bridgette Sexton not running on the Sabbath, but well big deal, I did not compete in gymnastics on the Sabbath, lots of kids made those sacrifices.  His name was Gavin Rumney.  He died a few years ago from cancer.  I never talked to him, but I know he was in alot of pain.  He believed the majority of the truth, but it was the only way I could see end the madness, of a council that would lie, and look the other way.  

    But it was not that simple.  I remember this mom said "she did not handle something the right way", 

and the footprint on the internet was that "nothing was done", but that's not true.  Something was done. Because well---you can cover things up, but anything on the internet you can retrieve.  And that's why I wonder at the stupidity of it all.  I wrote an article that went out to thousands of people.  And the elder was suspended.  I have that too.  There was not one thank you.  Nothing.  This mother was such a coward she did not even return my requested calls.  Because she cut a deal.  Her friend in West Virginia embezzled alot of money, built a building for the church.  And United did not do the right thing.  They did not apologize.  They did not return stolen funds.  And there was a "non-disclosure" agreement.  Part of the agreement was just don't talk about the child molester.  She wasted my time.  And how convenient she left to help form another church.   Jim Obrien and Guy Swenson, they are not so great either.  I talked to them too. They had a different view of how the church should be run, and they defied it, rightly so, but when you are paid elders and you don't agree with what is in place, you leave.  The church member went to jail. But these criminals took no responsibility for what they did.  

    The forum was not just about control, they were overly concerned about William Hohman being on there and talking about Living---the shooting.  I wondered why.  Well Franks was always looking for the next possible merger.  In addition to setting up a we website an a facebook page and group called Gideon's 300 let's just say years in advance of the actual split.  Again in these last months I was told it was because he wanted to be a President.  No one in there right mind would do that catastrophic to be a President.  Because he already had alot going on.  And joining Living was on the table.  So hence the concern about William going on Geraldo, because Geraldo chopped him up.  

 I was not a paid anything.  I was just a kid.  I slept on the floor so my mother could recover.  I worked 70 hours a week.  But that is nothing.  These are bad people.  

I finally broke down, when the gas lighting again happened with my husband and the lies, and an ax swung next to my head.  I left several messages saying I would not let him hurt anyone again and I would report him to both churches.  But it would not have mattered. Because I emailed them, very diplomatic, and they stonewalled me.  Then I talked to Victor---I no longer give him the title Mr. Or any of them.  I retraumatized myself because Rex was on a power trip.  Victor listened but said he could not handle it and to get a counselor for my trauma.   

     Well to be a writer, sometimes you have to write the things that count.  The things that matter.  Like I used to.  Like I once did.  Except there was a time it was for nothing.  My dad and lots of people said to walk away.  And I did, from United, except they came after me-even when I walked away.  I finally filed for divorce. On the Day of Atonement, after pleading for two months for my husband to join the petition, so it would be over in 90 days. But no, it was a control thing. I moved out in July of 2018.   I made up my mind I was going to get better, because I had shut down. The first four months of 2018 I could not even process what was happening, but Rex knew enough, and I could not even get out of bed for a month. Sometimes I did not eat for a week.  I went back and forth 3 times to Portland.  No church people really knew I was there.  A couple, but I could not even drive.  There were some external factors that contributed.  It was hard though, because a couple of people knew and well, they could not drive to see me. No one offered to help.  My mom tried, but for many reasons, it was not a good combination.  Because I was the one that needed "counseling". Well I did, because of what was happening to me and ministers who made light of it. Because I don't lie.  

 Horrible things happened in my marriage that no one should have to through.  I asked a minister named Rex Sexton to counsel us, not because I trusted him entirely, but he baptized me and my husband. I thought it would help. Well there are always signs.  When I started reporting the hitting, the road rage and the constant cussing.  It did not matter.  Apparently.  Those are all ok things to do and be allowed to attend church.  A church should be a safe place, where those things are not tolerated and people rally around you and protect you.  But it wasn't.  In all fairness not that many knew.  But Rex knew, not the really sick stuff, the stuff I can't even get out but he knew enough.  And even before one of the big assaults happened that injured my knee I told him he was not qualified to counsel my husband, but he told he did not know of any "counselors" for anger problems.  Well, it was not just anger.  It was violence and gas lighting.  The kind I never knew existed.  And it was a crime.  Three times I went to my mother's out of desperation, to Portland.  

    A joke was made that I was a "magnet for getting hit".  I was not perfect.  I was having a hard time getting out of bed because my anxiety was so high, and Roc Corrbett had been brought in, and he is just messed up.  Well, because he lies.  It's common knowledge he was going to be fired anyway.  But they kept him on, eventually demoted him to an assistant.  But that does not mean you deserve the treatment you get from your husband or an assault so great that it injures your knee, or your mother-in-law watching it and doing nothing.  The gas lighting  was the worst.  Being hit and then being told "why did you hit me". My property destroyed and broken. The F word was used to me in excess sometimes of almost 100 times in a matter of minutes many times over. Or at my father-in-law.  I said he needed professional help.  But Rex did not think so. 

   

     Well, in the beginning it was not so bad.  There was potential, but I did alot of the propping up. Four years I did.  There were signs in the beginning.  But I pushed them away.  Because, I was the good girl.  I did not lie, I waited till I was married to have sex.  I am against falsely accusing an elder or a minister, because I do believe it's an office.  The same with the police or a judge. And I married someone in the church.  But it does not really matter.  My sister married someone outside the church.  She lost everything.  Her kids.  But even if her husband had been in the church and she said something, they would have clobbered her too.  Because they lie.  And I get sick of it, and want to get my stuff out, but no, there was no guarantee I could get it all out without an outburst.   And then also, I hoped that my husband would get court ordered counseling.  But Roc Corbett came in.  He talked to my husband who lied and committed perjury in a court of law, but I got letter saying the police would be called and the most rediculous elaborate lie and document I have ever seen.  Beyond a doubt the lawyer who drafted it would be disbarred. And Roc would face a prosecutor.  The horrid reality is all of the stealing, lying and breaking of God's and man's law.  And the kids that are abused or molested and it's covered up.  

For a minister to lie and come into a court proceeding?  Well, I did not report it, because I made excuses. He is mentally ill etc.  But he was on that wicked council, not as a member as a wannabe minister. . And I made a mistake.  I mentioned what I did, but I told Rex and Roc they were breaking the law and cited the actual laws.  

So my x husband and mother in law lie.  Roc lies, then I actually go to them in my stupidity wasted alot of time, missed work because of the trauma.  Then of course just like the bank lady, they kick my x husband to the curb.  But it does not matter.  Because my brain still does not want to accept he hurt me and he was a liar. And even on an illegal divorce trial he could not look me in the eye when I said did your committment at baptism mean anything to you? He thinks he will get away with it. Well he won't.  I know how it feels to be used by a church.  It hurts.  I know he felt that hurt too.  Because the minister that married us, one I trusted for 10 years.  I knew what I would find out.  He knew the whole time. He was also on the council that looked the other way, and Jon Pinelli threatened to sue Nathan Albright.  Even at my wedding, Dave and Rex acted like they did not know each other.  I waited two days to look at the minutes again.  I was hysterical screaming out, No, No and why, Why.  

I will never forget a sermon he gave actually twice.  About Lance Armstrong and the lying deception and cover up.  I don't even know how someone could live with themselves.  Dave was part of and knew enough.  I trusted him.  But it's not ok to set up corporations in Florida and then change the board of directors...and siphon money, from United to Cogwa.  They all knew. Well not everyone.  So the betrayal is 360.   Not even the people I helped were honest.  It came to a point I stopped looking, because well anyone with half a brain knows where to look.  I always see where the money goes, but they are doing other things.  And I don't want to know.  

Look the business signs?  What is Cogwa doing? A few books, online courses.  And it pushed me over the edge, I even wrote irrational emails.  My dad and my own sister turned their backs.   Because there is no integrity.  Just selfishness.  The thing is if Roc had not done what he had done, I would have not remembered what I had forgotten.  And yes, I know about the lawyer Dave has retained in his hometown.  Well you have to pick and choose your battles.  That one hurt the most.  Like his Lance Armstrong sermon.  Because there signs from him too all along, and my anxiety went up and up.  

Because Cogwa is exactly what I believe on paper what they preach too.  

Jon Piniellie's dad Richard was the one who tried to cover it all up and lied.  And Jon knew the whole time and he pretended to be friend.  But when I made the comment that maybe there should be a policy about domestic violence and child abuse somewhere on the Cogwa website, he said " I am sorry you are not going to get what you want Kellie, your experience is so extreme, and it would never happen because of the training we got in United".  Hm....how did that make sense.  He reamed me in an email when he was first transferred up here, that he was watching me and Cj and we had gone to visit United.  Cj wanted off the speaking schedule, but I said no wait.  So we talked, he was actually shaking.  I said you owe us and apology.  Nothing.  I said no minister tells me or my husband that we cannot visit a church they split up, and yes Cj can go off the schedule if he wants. He lied.  

To committ crimes---so they can have retirements funds and cover up abuse of the very weakest the women and children---yes, gentleman you know who you are.  You made a mistake. Because part of my life I had to live not by choice even my own family does not know.  

Because to trust the person you married, and a church, I honestly believed I finally found a  place.  A church to call home, for the first time in my life.  I will give Franks credit. Even he knows not to come after me, but well United---it just went too far. Just like my husband.  And it was too much of a coincident that 95% of the ministers I dealt with were directly involved.  And it's not the past, because the ones I know and the fact I was there, were the ones that were for some weird reason the ones people said to talk to were on that council. 

I thought John Cafourek was some great man.  He wasn't.  I stare at his email, and now realize it was sarcasm.  It would not have mattered if he had turned that elder into the police.  Then I asked myself why did no one turn him in?  Whey did everyone direct me another way? Well they all cut a deal, and they would have denied it.  Everyone had their own agenda.  

Because it's so very bad.  It's not even leodicia, or modern day Pharissee's.  It's criminals.  

And the only reason they did not go after me back then, was well I was Kellie French and I grew up in Portland, and I know Bob Dick, who was the President at that time knew it would have raised too many red flags.  Because I did not cave.  But I can't comprehend the mind of a criminals.  This kind of evil I have seen twice in my  life.  I had to look Philip Shields in the face at a meeting, I only went because I knew he was going to obliterate my mother.  Whom all of these men knew about.  One other time I had to look a terrorist in the eye who laughed at September 11th.  And I refused to open a checking account for him.  

I lost so much, I wanted to do so much with my life.  I gave up so much to do "the right thing".  So I could get molested in the church, and attempted rape, and I have this "report" it's interesting how it changes over the years.  Again, I ask how can you people be that stupid.  Because my mother well, she likes to provoke people and things. And this document has significantly changed since 1998.  Because I always get some stupid call from someone that Philip Shields is at some church, and I always called Rex to shut it down.  And this time he said I have to, and if I did'nt I would be letting a pedophile among God's people.  So I wrote an email so some 90 year old minister, who proabably really could not comprehend Philip.  And I also called Philip Shields up and said if he threatened to sue Rex or any member or church I would come after him.  Because I was sick of it.  

There is significant changes to this document.  Appartently Rex's boss Carl McNair wanted him to got to the police.  Well that's not true.  Car McNair wanted to fire Rex.  He told me NOT to go and to say Rex was mistaken.  And also Larry Salyer who knew about it all, way before Rex knew what he was walking into is apparently "deceased".  Uh, no, he is on the board of directors of cogwa. I saved Rex's job.  And in a way I lied too.  In that document in the truth, but I left stuff out.  Because Rex's superiors. told me to lie.  But I was a kid.  And you don't blame a minor.  It never would have happened to me or the hundreds of others if any of these ministers did the right thing.  And that's why it's so very bad.  

And no it was not submitted to 26 different counties.  Like I said in my emails to theses ministers I have dealt with first hand.  If you dare slander or come after me. Your days of doing this are numbered.  Because I finally made a decision.  Everyone says you can't change anything.  That's not true.  There are good people in the world---go figure.  

There are powerful people I know.  And they are good people.  The reason they are in politics are because they too had horrid things happen.  Well if a kid could do something even if it was just a few days that FORCED criminals to do something half way decent.  Then I guess I can be that person again. 

Because to all of the women, and children you abused or let get abused and continue to.  And the people I see who were spiritually destroyed, and the money you steal.  I will fight you.  Because I don't trust ministers anymore.  But there was one that sat in a corner at my rediculous divorce trial.He  I could not believe it. I even walked out.  He stayed to thank the court reporter for being patient with me.  Well I could not submit evidence because some things were rigged.  But he is a teacher too.  And is 71 and he teaches full time.  And coaches all year.  And has a bad knee.  But he is a minister of God.  And he waited till I could get my car to the shop.  And I got all of the debt. Because my husband's parents paid for his lawyer, because instead of getting help, they would rather cover up his crime.  

I don't have a job.  But my husband intentionally did not collect unemployment or work just to punish me. Because that is what people with his condition do.  Well, in the end it does not work either.  This minister even came by the abandoned house where yes, I am once again sleeping on the floor.  Everything in boxes.  He paid for car the repair, because he knows I don't have the money.  I closed the door on him.  It was wrong.  And disrespectful before God.  Because I still don't want to believe the horrid truth.  And this is only the tip of the iceberg.  Because he is well respected like me in the community.

And he is a minister in cog 7th day.  Yeah the church Hwa left and called sardis. Because we think alot alike.  And he is always helping someone.  And he has been through hell too (not quite like this).  Because I know there are good ministers even in Cogwa and United, but what I can only relate to what I know first hand.  I know in the resurrection God will say to this man "well done my good and faithful servant".  

To the rest of you I won't because it's a word I never use.  I said a bad word too, because they kicked my husband to the curb.  And pompousness and arrogance that you think you will get away with it, or falsify a document because my mother pointed out they could be sued and give me a letter saying the police would be called if I attended.  Because I got sick of it.  How dare they do what do that.  

To entertain the idea that "Christ was unconscious" and not really dead.  Well yeah, I had forgotten why I always tried to avoid United.  Because Victor was the right hand man issuing in heresy.  And Mike Fazeall was even a "consultant" for UCG. 

And Cogwa, my brain cannot go there.  And for the whoever probably Bob who called my mother demon possessed.  Because she got harrassed by Philip Shields on internet---and went off of the deep end.  Just get off that council.  You people directly or indirectly destroyed almost every member of my family except one, and I have friends that committed suicide.  Remember Susan Brandt?  I do.  Remember how much did her life matter?  Because Philip Shields told her she was demon possessed.  And she killed herself.  

So, it's not what I wanted.  I wanted the illusion and the lie.  Oh yeah, Aaron, you had better get off the board as treasurer.  

And you leave this blog alone. Because this one is going out to a few thousand people too.  And they can decide.  Because I have had to spend a full year of learning the horrid horrid truth.  

Because I don't take an accusations against a minister lightly.  Thanks Rex for all you did.  I stood up for.  You are liars and criminals.  You are not ministers.  I won't  say the F word to you.   But I feel like it.  And Rex, enjoy the days you have remaining, your net worth is millions.  It will literally be over my dead body that you will ever run a summer camp again.  How dare you do this to God's precious people.  How dare you. 

Mark remember the taunt you gave me "God will take care of us".  Yes, he will, but maybe sooner than you thought.  Christ overturned the tables.  He was angry, and he said if you steal, you will be delivered to the judge and pay the utmost farthing.  

I could walk away and "heal".  But the healing comes with doing the right thing.  And if I had known counting the cost would be this. I never would have gotten baptized.  But it's too late.  Even my mom said she would have waited.  So at 17 a two sick counseling sessions from a rapist pedophile who asked everyone the "test question" If Kellie and I had an affair would you all forgive us and take us out for a sandwhich? 

I missed the first group that got baptized, because something bad happened to my sister.  No one ever knew what happened to me was worse. My mom said she could not take me to get baptized and overheard a little bit from a detective and sat in my room and cried.  Nothing should happen like that to a 15 year old.  And I promised myself  if it was in my power I would never let it happen to any kid.  And I  never did.  But you all did.  I paid the price for your crimes.  

I am not perfect or some great person.  I have my issues and my sins.  But because even toastmasters two people in my club keep the Sabbath and Holy Days and I learned where two or more are gathered together in my name, there I am also.  Christ told the disciples to let them be. 

If this never would have happened, I never would have gotten out from what I was in.  And yeah I am getting my act together.  Because everyone turned their back, except for a couple in the church, largely because do not know, but now some will.  Because you are the sickest of all of the splinter groups.  

Because you give the appearance of the middle ground.  But it happened for a reason.  And to those who have given up in despair and say nothing will change? That's not true. 

Separation of church and state is a blessing in the country.  Not to be used a playing field for abuse and crime.  If everyone walked away we would lose those freedoms.  So I choose not too.  

Because if I do I will lose my connection to God.  I waited this long to be sure.  

Many times I stood alone when the right thing was not popular. 

Oh and Jim like you emailed me, not it does not matter what font it is in, that does not make it so.  That's right.  My font was always the truth, even to my own detriment.  That lined never worked before, why do you think it would now? The absolute psychological scars and hell I have from that.  But like I said.  You did put on a good act.  You rotated people and run things more in the background.  You all even fooled me.  And that is a hard one to do.  

And I have to take responsibility for some irrational things I said. And I was mean to people and shut them out, because the pain and trauma was too great.  I could I guess blame you all. But my mind does not work that way.  Or I will not heal.  

Ironically it was my mother who knew about Cogwa and the diverted funds.  And she stood up for United with her facebook page, she had alot of anxiety over what she knew. And it's interesting a United document with date of 2010?  That got added on to 1998?  Because my mom made a point.  You all could be sued.  Larry Salyer is not dead.  But he is old now, and had heart attack. He needs to get off the board.  And you falsify a document both churches.  And you call her demon possessed. 

Yeah, good luck on that one. 

Not anonymous ever again.  

Kellie L. French --

And remember what I said about bothering me.  Because I mean it.  God's people will have the option to decide.  And if they want to support criminals, that is their choice, but you will not control them.  It will be their choice.